A friend rightly pointed out that I should consult my doctor before taking anything else to deal with allergies, since the two could conflict. Just like, I can't take boner pills because of my high blood pressure meds, because it could kill me. Oh the irony. Well I had to go see her soon anyway so I'm on for this Friday morning.
I've given up on hearing from Ex again. I wrote him, told him so. Apologized for being crazy, maybe I never should have stopped the anti-dep pills, but if I don't give up I will obsess about it til it drives us both insane. He's got a new life and I already caused him too much pain for this one. He probably regrets contacting me at all now. I will probably never know. It doesn't matter, I can't replace him and I can't have him, so it's better to give him up and watch from afar.
I wonder if he ever did that with me.