I am not sure how exactly to type this up without violating several employee policies if I divulge anything too specific, but I should say first that I am still employed very gainfully, and that does not seem to be changing anytime soon. What is changing, however, is the team I was working with, and most specifically, the ones I answer to.
It's a common thing in very large companies, like the global one I work for, to have people shuffled around seemingly suddenly. Honestly, it just seems sudden, if you ask me. I know behind the scenes they have to plan such changes out far in advance. What isn't common is to build a bond of trust with your bosses.
My immediate supervisor knew everything about my home situation , my mother's deteriorating state, and my own battles with mental illness. When we had to drag Mom to the hospital recently, I knew my boss would allow me to take a sudden week's vacation to deal with it... we'd built up that kind of a relationship, and he knew her history (mostly because I was hoping there was a way he could help me get out of my living area). He granted me that, and my deadlines were extended, which was not a big deal.
Then during this unscheduled break, which wasn't a break for me as I was going to the hospital every day in Winchester and then zooming up the holler to feed these cats who hate me, spending about $400 in gas in a week, I saw something that made me realize that Everything Was Changing.
I felt immediate dread. The last time I felt immediate dread about Everything Was Changing was in radio, and a few months after that, I was unceremoniously dumped. Schadenfraude was smiling on me there, because the guy who unceremoniously dumped me was shortly, along with everybody he brought along in The Great Dumping of 2016, also themselves dumped because they sucked.
Well, change things did, and now I have to train a new boss to like me and my weird life right now and why I am like this and just accept me even if I am mental.
And now I am sure I am never going to meet any of the people who hired me in the first place.
We have our regular meeting tomorrow, who knows how that will go, or even if it will happen, as a colleague also passed away this Saturday. He was probably one of three or four people I worked with on the creative side since the company hired me, which was shortly after it started (My first message from my supervisor was January 1, 2017... I knew I was in it for a while by mid-February of that year).
I'm not sure bringing up my concerns for my own welfare if we have that meeting will be appropriate, but it might be the last time I talk to somebody I completely trust. And then, even if I am getting paid well and doing a good job, I will still need to start all over again, just like in radio.
Just in case, Kelly will help me re-do my resume to focus on creative podcasting. I shouldn't have ignored that recent posting for Wondery, I guess. Hindsight is 20/20.